i am falling apart
greetings.
don’t worry about not being facebook friends, i didn’t take it personal at all.
the truth is, i checked this because i missed you, but i always miss you. No, i haven’t found closure, but i am real good at tricking myself. but my wooden nose keeps growing. i wish you well sue, pursue your dreams, i still want to see your show :)
i hate not seeing you.
Z
heyy.. i figured this would be the best way to contact you, thinking you wouldn’t check it unless you missed us and wanted to talk but couldn’t or something. i’m writing because.. because.. because i am. i’ve gone over my highlights of 2010 and you were in most of them.. i can’t be fb friends with you anymore, not because i don’t want to be in your life or you in mine but because i can’t look through your pictures anymore, it’s not healthy. you changed my life, z and i can’t thank you enough. it was so fun, so good having you be a part of this life for a while.. i shouldn’t have had all those expectations for you, or rushed us into serious thoughts about life, our futures, etc. i realize how wrong that was, how stupid that must have sounded. maybe you have closure, but i’m still searching for mine. so until then, it’s the best not to contact each other, even if the only person i want to talk to is you. you taught me how to laugh again, how to be comfortable in my own skin and not make excuses for myself. hah, sometimes i wish we would’ve met now but that’s just stupid. we met at the right time, and i loved you and you loved me. you are such an amazing person, and i want to support you in whatever you do. praying for you, boo. happy new year, go get ‘em. ohh! i have your IC blanket and pillow…… i’ll send it your way.
i hate that we can’t talk.
break-ups suck.
have the best life, z
